So, its been almost a month since I’ve quit my job. I officially/unofficially have about two months remaining of money before my funds run out. Two months left of this experiment.

Question: Am I any closer to figuring out what I want for a new career? Hmmmmm not really because it depends on when you ask as to what answer I give.

I actually contemplated going back to work part-time as a consultant or trainer in my job from a few years ago. Now THAT is a fear choice. There is no freedom or joy in that. It is purely about the money. There is no creativity or inspiration, only frustration and PANIC. So I’m officially talking myself off the ledge.

I thought about it…developing a site for technology teachers to come and purchase lesson plans and training materials. I argued that it would take a very long time to develop the materials needed to even launch the site. I argued that there are already plenty of companies offering things similar to this out there who have much more resources than I do. I argued I was unsure if the market was big enough to make money.

But in the end, I realized I simply don’t want to do it. It feels heavy, not light. It feels like drudgery, not fun and creative. So why the hell would I willing sign up for something like THAT. I must repeat to myself: just because I’m good at something, doesn’t mean I should I do it.

So this one I’ll pass on. Sorry technology teachers of the world. If you email me and I can still find the stuff, I’ll be happy to share whatever I can. But that’s as far as I go.

Which brings me to this: I think this was a “fear choice.” It seemed like the closest thing to what I know and had been doing and being something new. I don’t want to make a choice based on fear but of excitement and enthusiasm and joy.

Well THAT post title is very informative? Perhaps its vagueness is indicative of how unclear I am at the moment.

Anyway, I got an “out of the blue” email the other day from a teacher I’ve never met who was interested in my lesson plans and the project I created with my kids. She said she and other teachers would be willing to purchase some of these and maybe even buy training from me in the Adobe products.

Hmmmmm…so that got me thinking. I usually don’t just push aside things like this…messages out of the blue. So I am exploring this idea a bit further. What would it take to develop something like this? How long? Would it make money? Do I WANT to do it??

So ideas I have so far as I brainstorm: Could the site be set-up something like a Flash Den where lessons (complete packages) could be offered for sale, as well as video training for use by both the teachers and their students. Other people could contribute these packages and sell them.

Free video segments could be put on YouTube & TeacherTube,  and a Ning community could be created. The Ning community would be a way for the teachers to be able to help one another.

I’m not certain what my “dream job” is. Not yet anyway. It’s not that I don’t have any ideas on the subject; it’s that I have TOO many ideas. I am all over the place as to what I want to do with my life and my career. Let’s list some of them:

• Instructional Designer (but working in a more creative environment)
• Illustrator
• Web Designer
• Multimedia Developer
• Develop some sort of technology teacher curriculum site
• Be a consultant to schools and school districts, mainly concerning Web 2.0 stuff
• Children’s book author/illustrator
• Create collages and jewelry and sell them; and teach at craft shows and even online
• Create digitally enhanced/created commissioned portraits

See what I mean? And those are only the one’s I will admit to in writing – on a public blog.