I think I have issues with time. Seriously. It falls into a big black hole and I lose most of it every day.

Several people throughout my life have commented on how hyper-focused I can be. One past office-mate used to wonder if I were a real person – it freaked her out that I could sit and work intensely at my computer for 6+ hours without even looking up.

My boyfriend described it as me “going down the rabbit hole.” I completely lose all sense of time and space. When I come out and look up, an entire day can be gone.

So that’s a good thing, right? Creatives are used to having that happen. We NEED to have that happen  – right-brain stuff, yada yada yada. But what if we are left to our own devices?? What if there is no “assignment” or project or deadline that has been put upon us by some outside force?

Left to my own devices, I don’t know if its amazement or embarrassment at how much time I can waste and get nothing done. I suppose I should try and videotape myself to see if aliens come and kidnap me or something. Because I can have really good intentions to get things done…sit down at my computer to get said list done…look up and its 5-8 hours later….and nothing on the list is done.

I’ve tried multiple organizational systems from paper to computerized but none of them help. Not certain if its about lack of organization or just a lack of the concept of TIME or………

I think that it is I am perpetually distracted – and all things being equal – what I am distracted by is just as important, if not more so than the thing on my list. What list?? Ewwww…shiny!!